Wednesday, April 28, 2010

La Roux - I'm Not Your Toy

Best movie ever... hands down!

Bob: Sean, what are you doin' outside man?

Sean: you're him?

Bob: ...yeah... I'm him

Sean: [claps hands together] JESUS! Have i sinned or am i goin' to heaven?

Bob: [laughing] you're fryin' man, how much acid did you take?

Sean: you're not Jesus... you're Bob

Bob: I'm Bob!... how goes it?

Sean: how are you doin' that?

Bob: doin' what?

Sean: walkin' on water? if i get off this chair I'll drown, you wanna know what Bob? 'Cause i cant swim!

Bob: oh, i get it! so Sean, d'you see land anywhere?

Sean: [looking around] no... just water... say Bob, You ARE Jesus.

Bob: Thats Right, I am, why do you ask?

Sean: ...Satan, is in the house, he killed my Mom and turned her into a bull!

Cops: [after flashback to a scene with Sean threatening his mother with a knife but being scared by Satan and a bull, his mother]
[bob waves to Seans mum at the window who reluctantly waves back]
Cops: [the Cops pull in] Put your hands in the air and slowly turn around!

Sean: [happy as happy can be] I'M SAVED

Bob: yeah... sure Sean... you're saved...

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Sigh!

Okay so I feel like I have been neglecting my blog... :'( I'm sorry. I don't know why I feel that way really I actually only use it to vent and besides a couple friends that follow it I guess it doesn't even matter but anyways!

So I promised I would give a boy update and here it is as confusing as it might be. I potentially like 3 new boys not to mention I still like my X Peter. So we will call these new boys "Prospects" lol. Okay and the boys are (with description and scale 1-10) -
1. Thomas - Really nice, I have known him for 9 years and dated him 7 years ago. So this is nothing new for us. We found each other like a couple weeks ago out of the blue (which you will see shortly is a pattern) And things just seemed to take off... but I also know in the past he wasn't good with relationships... but I also know that he has grown up a lot since then. So I don't know. Niceness 7, Looks 9, overall boyfriend material 6
2. Bam - Also really nice, actually prob the nicest of all. He really likes me, and I have really liked him for a while but it's a secret that only one person knows (who knows him that is) so your prob thinking well why not go for it. Well because I found out he is still married now before you start jumping to I'm a bad person, nothing has happened with me and him and him and her have split up. But that's still pretty big for me and I feel strange. Niceness 10, Looks 8, overall bf 9 but married.
3. Matt - Old best friend from 9 years ago (go figure and they don't know each other) and he just popped up 3 days ago. Strange right. And he is perfect but there are just some things I can't get past... we were best friends and were back to being best friends which is amazing. Do I want to mess that up? And he isn't the typical guy I go for not necessarily looks but a couple things. So do I break away from the norm and give it a chance, or do I stick with my norm and keep a best friend. The only issue is we have admit we like each other, and talked about the what ifs and the In's and outs of everything. So would friends be awkward at this point... Niceness 10, Looks 6, overall bf 9

Now what the point of all that was I will never know. I just had to get it out I guess... blah.
ON ANOTHER NOTE lol

I am going through with lap band as of now. I have my first appointment Saturday at 10am and the next one is Wednesday don't remember what time lol. I have researched everything looked up all the risks and ups and downs and I think it's the best choice for me. I'm tired of being a fat ass! And I'm not going to be one of those lazy Americana's that complains and does nothing about it. I have a problem, I am admitting it, and now I'm fixing it! YAY me!

Sunday, April 25, 2010

To be fat or not to be fat..... what kind of question is that?

Okay so I haven't been on much because well I won't lie... I was partying and being a bad girl. Go figure right... the only weird part is I have changed a lot. I don't party like I used to, I don't do the stupid shit I used to, and all my friends I have now are much more mature. I had a good time with no drama or problems for once!

Well I came home last night and literally passed the hell out... didn't get home till 5am but you know. When I woke up Kirstie Alley Big Life was on. Well she was weighing her self in her office or whatever and I realized OMG I weigh more the Kirstie Alley. Not that she isn't pretty or that she is huge or anything I think she is pretty and I actually really like her... the shocking part is I never saw myself as well BIG I mean I knew I was Chubby but I didn't know I was morbidly obese. Kirstie weighed in at 240 which is what I weighed last time I checked.

So I started researching, I got on to NewHope Bariatrics of Kansas City and looked up LAP BAND. Well they have you put in your sex (female) age (20) height (5'8") weight (240) then the calculator tells you what your body mass index or BMI is mine is 36.5!!! Which makes me Severely Obese and my level of health risk is very high! That hurt! Well I kept reading and it told me because I had such a high BMI I qualify for a free seminar to get LAP BAND.

I have wanted LAP BAND for a long time, I have wanted to be skinny again for 3 or 4 years. I know I can do it and I know I can stick to it because LAP BAND would be the perfect tool for me... but I am scared. I am going to this meeting though on Saturday to find more out and I think it would be good for me. Just think wow I could be so pretty!! lol But I guess we will see what happens... and thats all I have been thinking about all day... but I do have boy stuff to post later so I shall be back tonight :)

Your BMI is: 36.5

Body Mass Index Key
BMICLASSIFICATIONLEVEL OF HEALTH RISK
Under 18.5UnderweightMinimal
18.5 - 24.9Normal WeightMinimal
25 - 29.9OverweightIncreased
30 - 34.9ObeseHigh
35 - 39.9Severely ObeseVery High
40 and overMorbidly ObeseExtremely High

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Thursday, April 22, 2010

There is so much going on right now that I don't even know where to start... so I guess like everything I will start with the bad.
You know how when your like 14 and your with your mom shopping and she is busy trying to get the grocery's in the basket or handle your siblings or whatever so she lets you slide her card and sign her name. Well one of my old friends, who is mad at me for the worst reasons, is trying to get back at me. So she decides to go to the cops and tell them I forged her name, WHICH I did NOT do! Come to learn that's a felony. But anyways I talked to the detective and told him everything and now it's looking like I will be okay. Were taking polygraphs and all that and I know I will be alright so I'm not worried. In the event that I do get charged or convicted or whatever I will be a felon, I will be on probation, and I will have a fine, but he doesn't think I will get any jail time.
On a good note though! In high school about 4 years ago actually I dated this guy Thomas, well I moved and he moved on with his life. Like a week ago I happened to find his myspace so I added him, I figured he wouldn't remember me. The next day I got a message... Hello beautiful. :) I was so excited so I gave him my number and told him to text me 5 min later I got a text. Well he came over yesterday and I had the best time!!!
I think I have a tendency to fall to fast and fall hard. I am working on fixing it but I guess we shall see how that goes.
Anyways other than all of that, I'm still trying to figure out where I'm moving, Where I'm going to school, What I'm going to school for, and who to remove from my life, and who to keep. So many decisions and things. It gets overwhelming.....