Sigh!

Okay so I feel like I have been neglecting my blog... :'( I'm sorry. I don't know why I feel that way really I actually only use it to vent and besides a couple friends that follow it I guess it doesn't even matter but anyways!

So I promised I would give a boy update and here it is as confusing as it might be. I potentially like 3 new boys not to mention I still like my X Peter. So we will call these new boys "Prospects" lol. Okay and the boys are (with description and scale 1-10) -
1. Thomas - Really nice, I have known him for 9 years and dated him 7 years ago. So this is nothing new for us. We found each other like a couple weeks ago out of the blue (which you will see shortly is a pattern) And things just seemed to take off... but I also know in the past he wasn't good with relationships... but I also know that he has grown up a lot since then. So I don't know. Niceness 7, Looks 9, overall boyfriend material 6
2. Bam - Also really nice, actually prob the nicest of all. He really likes me, and I have really liked him for a while but it's a secret that only one person knows (who knows him that is) so your prob thinking well why not go for it. Well because I found out he is still married now before you start jumping to I'm a bad person, nothing has happened with me and him and him and her have split up. But that's still pretty big for me and I feel strange. Niceness 10, Looks 8, overall bf 9 but married.
3. Matt - Old best friend from 9 years ago (go figure and they don't know each other) and he just popped up 3 days ago. Strange right. And he is perfect but there are just some things I can't get past... we were best friends and were back to being best friends which is amazing. Do I want to mess that up? And he isn't the typical guy I go for not necessarily looks but a couple things. So do I break away from the norm and give it a chance, or do I stick with my norm and keep a best friend. The only issue is we have admit we like each other, and talked about the what ifs and the In's and outs of everything. So would friends be awkward at this point... Niceness 10, Looks 6, overall bf 9

Now what the point of all that was I will never know. I just had to get it out I guess... blah.
ON ANOTHER NOTE lol

I am going through with lap band as of now. I have my first appointment Saturday at 10am and the next one is Wednesday don't remember what time lol. I have researched everything looked up all the risks and ups and downs and I think it's the best choice for me. I'm tired of being a fat ass! And I'm not going to be one of those lazy Americana's that complains and does nothing about it. I have a problem, I am admitting it, and now I'm fixing it! YAY me!