Friday, May 14, 2010
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
I take that back.. this is the happiest
Me
you should text me sometime you never did last time
02:54Anna
i know, baby. i'm sorry. i'll text you as soon as I have a free second. I'm pretty busy with my family and sister. she's graduating this sunday so we've been pretty busy with her
She called me baby... I could cry right now!
Hardest but happiest convo of my life...
Me
Hey you, how are you doing?
02:22Anna
drunk...but other than that awesome
02:22Me
lol sweet lucky
02:23Anna
well then i'm sweet and lucky every night...
02:23Me
Hun are you okay?
02:24Anna
nope...
02:24Me
whats wrong?
02:24Anna
someday i might be...but now...nope
02:24Me
Im sorry
hugz
02:25Anna
I'm an alcoholic who doesn't know how to be alone and wishes the one girl i want to call me and tell me she loves me
but i know that will never happen so i drink every night so I can actually sleep and dream about her
02:26Me
Well if you need me... no matter what... i am always here for you... i know i used to be a shitty person... but i would like to think i have changed... and if it means anything... there is a part of me that loves you anna
02:26Anna
you're a very very silly girl then
02:26Me
why is that?
02:27Anna
take that part of you and throw it away...as far away from you as you possibly can
02:27Me
I dont think its ever going to go away... its been there for what... 6 years now!! lol i think its stuck... and im happy like that
02:28Anna
yeah well...I'm a pretty idea that only comes with pain and loathing...you'd do yourself well to just get rid of whatever I am to you...
02:29Me
I dont buy that anna... when i was with you i was happy.... monika skank whore whatever you want to call her is nothing but pain, and psycho what not... there is a difference
02:31Anna
you weren't with me long enough, then. I've been nothing but pain to anyone i've ever been with. And unfortunately one got to me before I could get to her...and I don't think I'll ever be the same again...
02:32Me
Well I really am sorry about that, and I wasn't lying when I said I am here for you if you need me... and I have no plans on going anywhere. I have been through hell and back more than most people can imagine... and the way i see it im still standing... there is nothing any one can do to ever hurt me again... i wont let it happen... im not dumb enough to let it happen yet again...
Bad things happen but you have to learn from them hun... thats what makes you stronger... pain is a part of the game
02:34Anna
Lucky you. I wish I could say the same. I would stand on my porch every day until the day I die waiting for her to show up and tell me the words she'll never say to me. And I will stand out there every day, drunk as sin...
02:36Me
Not to be creepy... but why do you think I tried so hard to talk to you for so long... I know i fucked up with you... im not dumb... and i hate me for it in a weird way... I wanted SOO bad to be back with you for sooo long... i know it will never happen... but im okay with that now... things will get better trust me... you just have to hang in there for a while and know that there are people that love you
02:37Anna
the only people who love me are people who don't know who or what I am...they don't know what i'm capable of.
02:38Me
No one ever really know what any one is capable of love is giving someone the chance to destroy you and trusting them not to.
02:39Anna
well, i'm done trusting anyone to not destroy me...everyone already has...
02:40Me
Like I said I am sorry Anna... but I am also here... And i believe that one day you will be okay again and learn to love agian... it happens... I still miss Katie like non other!! But im okay now...
02:41Anna
I'm glad you're ok now. I hope to be ok someday
02:41Me
and trusting may always be hard... its still really hard for me... i think it always will be... monika fucked that up... but trust is weird... love comes easier... I know you will be okay someday I have faith in you... hugz
02:42Anna
im glad you do, I've lost faith in just about everything...
02:44Me
shit happens... i guess thats all I can say... i know your strong you have always been hard headed lol... and hey everytime i watch finding nemo btw i laugh and think of you!
02:45Anna
lol. you would.
that's a great movie. i think of you everytime i watch it too
02:45Me
lol just keep swimming just keep swimming... is coming to mind as of now
02:45Anna
lmao
02:45Me
lol laying upstairs on your couch lol!!!!
good times :)
02:45Anna
lol...that really was good times
i wanna go back to then...
i don't wanna be a grown up anymore
02:46Me
No kidding or like changing in your truck while driving down barry road to go to the cast party!!
02:46Anna
hahahahahah
that was awesome
02:46Me
lol!!!
I know right!!!
02:46Anna
why didn't we fuck?
we had so many opportunities
02:46Me
I dont know I still wish we did... Im still dying to lol
SOO many!!! lol
02:46Anna
we totally should
wanna fuck?
02:46Me
Im so game lol
02:47Anna
lol
i'd rock your world
you wouldn't ever wanna fuck anyone else
02:47Me
You are still by far the hottest chick ever lol!!! in my mind haha
Im sure you would
02:47Anna
of course i am lol
am pretty fucking hot
02:47Me
lol of course you are
I so miss you!!
remember making out by the stairs pissing people off in school lol... i wanted you so damn bad
02:48Anna
lol....i wanted you too
02:48Me
We need to hang out bad! lol
02:48Anna
agreed
02:49Me
:)
02:51Anna
lol. i'm pretty sure a lot would happen...not while watching finding nemo though cuz i can't do anything to disney...it's awkward lol
02:51Me
LOL me too!!! im excited!
